My heart has a hole in it that seems nothing can fill.
It seems that time changes my tears, as if they are stages.
It is as if I am having a
the pain crushes into my chest with such force that it is
hard to breathe!
Trail of tears...
click on the stages to read about them.
What if (I had done this or that )
- started at 1 month after he died and lasted 4 months.
If only (I had known)- started around 4 months.
I miss him - 5 months
I miss him and the pain is increasing - 6 months.
Realizing my mistakes- 7 months.
A reason to smile- 8 months.
I couldn't protect him- 9 months
I'm scared- 10 months
Boy, was that hard!!!- 12 months
concerns about my actions- in the 2nd year
Cramming for GriefWork 101- 15 months
To Laugh again!- 17 months (working on it)
What Grief Counselors are Told- 15 months
I have found the smile I lost- 22 months
2 years completed- 24 1/2 months
WHY?... Why Not?- 25 months
Thanksgiving 2003 my 3rd Thanksgiving
January 2004 wow it's 2004...
Needy . . . ... July 2004
Remembering September 11 ...
One rainy gloomy morning in October 04 ...
Nov 22 04 (The life of a bereaved mother is a roller coaster ride of emotions.
I sit down to write when I think of it but there are many times that
I need to write about that get skipped over, due to lack of time or just the fact that I forget that I have a site.
Sounds strange doesn't it? But that is my life now, I can forget I have friends that
tell me to call them when I get down, I forget who said what, I can forget what I sat down to write....
Just wanted you to understand there is far more than what I write going on... just as in anyones life...
A Special Dream ... Jan 05 ...
Things are getting better ... May 05
"You've Been Hit" ... Aug 05
He's not just anyone, He's my son... Does God Hear our Prayers? ... Jan 06
Normality ... Jan 06
A pleasant surprise... ... Jan 29 2006
Life again! Yea!!!! ... March 30 2006
My Life (the movie).... .. ... April 20, 2006
Beautiful worn rustic book ... June 28 2006
Can we question God? ... August 2006
Life changes fast... ... December 2006
New experiences... ... Jan 2007
Do you really mean it?... ... May 2007
Back home... ... Aug 2007
White Chocolate Lindor Truffles *~* ... September 2007
Christmas 2007... It's okay now.
March 08.. Getting Organized! and fun with FlyLady
May 08.. Tragedy of a windy night ...Eliana and Edwin
March 09.. My Inner Princess Brat
Books I recommend
Movies dealing with a bereaved parent
Songs that help
((This page is under construction.))
The reason for this page and the whole site is
* first ... to help me with my grief.
* second ... to help others, I wanted to know what to expect.
I think it helps to know what others are going through.
* third ... to show everyone my wonderful son.