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I think of so many things I want to tell someone but there is not anyone to tell them to, no one to talk to, no one that would want to listen. These are thoughts that the "normal" person would not want to think about. It would be nice to be like I was... Going through life with a smile on my face, a song in my heart... nothing could dampen my spirit! Always with an encouraging word for everyone who needed one. Flighty, fun loving, lighthearted, talented, beautiful, sweet and pleasant to be around ... these were some of the words that I have heard describe me in my past. I have been working VBS this week at Church. The ladies and men who are in charge are like I used to be. As I watch them have so much fun... doing skits, singing songs, teaching the kids movements and motions to the songs, my heart yearns to be like it was in my past. I mentioned to one of these ladies that I used to do what they were doing and the fun I used to have ... she said "we all have different seasons of life". Oh to be so innocent. I told her it wasn't that... "That part of my life died with Michael". She didn't say anything else... She absolutely has no idea... and so it should be...
This time in my life... I would call it "needy"... no... "very needy".
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