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One of my girlfriends died Wed, blood clot to the lungs. It was hard but I loaded the suitcases and the kids in car for the 4 hour drive back to my old home town. It felt like no time had gone by as we drove through the familiar streets, only the new lumber store revealed a year had gone by. I stopped and dug up my rose bush from my old vacant, totally gutted out house. It looked sad.
You just done realize how many friends and how you are missed until you return. I belonged there.
We stayed at a favorite friend who took such good care of us. Michelle’s death upset her life as with many of my friend’s lives.
Michelle was always at Church, her husband David (good looking Hawaiian) was the “unofficial” music leader and her girl sang in the praise group.
Her oldest boy of three was a best friend of Michael until high school.
I had known them since the 80’s a little after they moved to H’ville.Here is a picture of Billy and his little boy that I drew for Michelle before I moved.
I will not feel her absence like my friends will …
for I feel ALL their absences equally.
But I feel their pain.
I felt it in the long tight hug of David’s. I felt his confusion, his uncertainty, the unreal feelings and thoughts running through his head. He smiled a sad smile when he saw me and told me he hadn’t known who to call. He was so lost… it hurt my heart.
I know the pain he will feel as he goes through the next year and people who do not know ask him how Michelle is. When he says… “She is dead” for the first time to someone and has to endure the surprise on their face.
I have been back now for almost 2 days.... I have been so depressed. I wanted to stay with my friends, I missed them so much. My children cried when we had to leave.
Unlike here.. there they were well known and extremely liked. There were people who wanted us to move back... there were people who valued our friendship... who valued us.